I dont know what to say

I feel realy bad right now. I really dont know what to say i had a really bad day yesterday and i said somethings i shouldnt and i really dont know what to do. i know you guys have no idea what i am talking about but its ok. i just need some time alone to think and to get somethings straightined out in my life and with god. i think this song pretty much sums it all up.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother meI can take a few tears now and then and just let them outI'm not afraid to cryEvery once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets meThere are daysEvery now and again i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets meWhat hurts the most, was being so closeAnd having so much to sayAnd watchin you walk awayNever knowing, what could have beenAnd not seein that lovin youIs what i was tryin to doIt's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i goBut i'm doin itIt's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm aloneStill harder gettin up, gettin dressed, livin with this regretBut i know if i could do it overI would trade, give away all the words that i saved in my heart that i left unspokenWhat hurts the most, is being so closeAnd having so much to sayAnd watchin you walk awayNever knowing, what could have beenAnd not seein that lovin youIs what i was tryin to doWhat hurts the most, was being so closeAnd having so much to sayAnd watchin you walk awayAnd never knowing, what could have beenAnd not seein that lovin youIs what i was tryin to donot seein that lovin youthat’s what I was tryin to do…